I received this in the mail today from an anonymous sender. Thank you, anonymous sender, you made me smile. […]
As I was getting ready this morning for chemo round 2 I noticed a bit more hair had shed and I allowed myself nanosecond of sadness before I made up my mind and shifted my energy from sad to glad.
Every day I wake up with hair is a gift – even better than that – every day that I wake up feeling good is a gift. Every night I am able sleep a good sleep is a gift. Every kiss and hug and ounce of love I receive from my family and my friends – each are gifts that I cherish. […]
Straddling a serious food coma and a major onset of contentedness I feel myself on the verge of mushy. There’s nothing like a mild case of breast cancer to make a person stop and take stock of their blessings.
—– and this this happened—–
That’s the grandest grandson ever. Thing 1 version 2 has the ability […]
Not a bad kind of fuckit but more of a lackadaisical lost a little give-a-shit kinda fuckit. It’s a good fuckit. I’m enjoying it.
and the candle smells amazing too
P.S. Nobody should feel this good after chemo. I almost feel guilty for feeling as well as I do. A little tired, queasy from time […]
Give me a moment to backtrack to yesterday. A former client, now good friend drove me to the hospital for the procedure that put my chemo port in place. It was so great to catch up because she’s really one of my absolute favorite people on this earth. I’m glad to have had that […]
I shit you not. The prescription says “Cranial Prosthesis”
It’s day 37. To say that I’m overwhelmed would be an understatement. Until this past Monday I was going to try and delay chemo until after the holidays but on Monday I changed my mind. I’m not sure the cause but, I suddenly got ok with […]
Topsy turvy, upside down and sideways – this cancer thing is one twist and turn after another. So far I think the biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is the one with my mind. Cancer is a game of hurry up and wait, come to terms with one thing then the next moment it […]
((I got my day count jacked up. Now it’s correct))
Today was a blissfully normal day full of normal and mundane things. I had a fabulous session with a really funny, gorgeous client who brought in a wardrobe that caused me to do a little happy dance. Then I entered receipts and did some mundane […]
Yesterday was a roller coaster, one big giant mood swing after another. I woke up filled with sadness, I went to bed filled with joy and hope.
I’m self-employed. I’ve busted my ass to build up my business. I’ve accepted that cancer will take my tits and treatment will take my hair – small prices to […]
I’ve not yet really allowed myself to feel fear or sadness until the past two days. This morning I seem to be making up for lost time.
Hiding in my bedroom, partially to get away from the noises that children make and also to allow myself to wallow in solitude. I really don’t want the kids […]