Petra

About petra

I'm Petra. 44 year old mom to three. I'm not married, but my mister and I have been together for ten years. I'm a photographer and co-founder of a business blog for other photographers in my genre. Today, as I'm writing this 'about me' introduction page, I'm on day 14 since my cancer diagnosis. I'm determined to not let my cancer define me, but damn - it's kind of taken over my life. I intend to blog as frequently or infrequently as I choose. I intend to rant, rave, stomp my feet and maybe pout if I want to. I intend to fight the good fight and I may even say a few insightful things when and if the urge strikes. I over-use eclipses....and I'm a bit of a potty mouth and I'm on a mission to beat this fucking cancer and redefine how I see my own beauty and femininity - with or without breasts. Welcome to my bloggity-blog.

Goodbye 2015, don’t let the door hitchya on the way out

By |December 31st, 2015|

I’m not much of a resolution maker but I do like to review each year, take a moment to count the many blessings and move forward into the new year with the intent to improve my life on all fronts.

Lemme tell ya something, 2015 can kiss my ass.

This does not mean that I do not […]

Day 71 – Cancer-free

By |September 29th, 2015|

The God’s Honest Truth, What They Don’t Tell You
There are so many things they don’t tell you about treatment and the aftermath. During treatment it’s all about the fight and getting through each day. There were good days, there were days I didn’t leave my bed for a five day stretch. There’s talk of […]

Day 233 – Almost at the finish line

By |June 1st, 2015|

As anticipated, the past 6 weeks since my last blog post,  have both dragged and flown by. In two days I’ll receive my last chemo treatment and for whatever reason, when I think about my LAST CHEMO TREATMENT I practically crumble into a slobbery mess of tears. I’m not sure if the reality of “I […]

Day 168 Light at the end of the tunnel

By |April 28th, 2015|

Long time no blog.  Life is busy with home and work and treatment days and days scheduled to ‘convalesce’.

This second medication has come with a set of new side effects and a lot of the same side effects that I had with the first medication have reared their ugly heads.  I’m still extremely fortunate […]

Day 116: A whole lotta nothin goin on

By |March 6th, 2015|

I’m negative and pouty and discouraged.  Incredibly resentful that my “chemocation” is over and just in a foul mood overall.

In speaking with my oncologist this morning he expressed concern that my tumor hasn’t responded as well as he’d hoped – when I heard that my heart sank.  I feel defeated.

Day 97 – Chemo-cation and the kindness of friends

By |February 14th, 2015|

Have I ever mentioned that I have the best friends ever?
I don’t get out much – even without cancer, the demands of work and home keep me pretty well-grounded.  With cancer, I’d given up on attending  yearly “work-ation” at the photographer industry’s trade show coming this March.  The costs associated and the timing put it out […]

Day 96 – Negative never felt so good.

By |February 13th, 2015|

I’ve outlived my father.
He died at the ripe old age of 43 from renal cell cancer.  His mother, too, had renal cell cancer – not once, but twice.  These facts have never drifted far from my mind however since my breast cancer diagnosis, these facts began to loom over my head giving me a […]

Day -5 Pre-diagnosis – When the universe screamed at me.

By |February 10th, 2015|

I’m back-posting this because I think it’s got some important and relevant content.  I posted these words on Facebook 5 days before I received my diagnosis.  I didn’t post with the intent of gathering pity or support, but I felt that if I didn’t get it out there I would explode.

WHEN THE UNIVERSE SAYS […]

Day 93 – I’m really a bad blogger

By |February 10th, 2015|

I’m determined to not let this cancer thing rule my life so that means that as much as I am able, I try to live a ‘normal’ life. That means that I avoid cancer-things, like this blog.

It’s my excuse, I just made it up and I think I’ll stick with it.
Update
After a one week […]

Day 70 – Chemo Round 3 Batman Returns

By |January 19th, 2015|

I’m getting so tired of hearing myself whine and complain.
Grouchy is not my standard operating mode ((no, seriously!)) and for whatever reason, Chemo Day is always a good day.  What an odd thing to look forward to, but I do… maybe because it represents another step toward knocking this shit out of my body […]